.Sunday, April 06, 2008 ' 11:49 PM♥.
Hey,
It's my 200th post for this blog! It's went through alot that's for sure. Unforunately, i'm not as happy as i should be... I still feel pretty much the same as my last blog entry though i've been receiving quite alot of encouragement and everything.
But it's really not easy. I know the sense of achievement i might obtain if i really do manage to run this race successfully will be overwhelming. But it's just that the road to obtaining that sucess is rocky.
It's almost 12am now and i still have an SEA lvl 6 and an AQ to do. Honestly, even i don't know what i'm still doing online. These 2 things shldn't take too long though.
I'm still feeling relatively sick but not as bad as i was on friday since i had a stomachache to accompany that cough. Right now the stomach ache is gone but a running nose has decided to join my fellow cough friend.
I hope i recover soon 'cos i think that this sickness is making me have trouble thinking mentally and emotionally.
I've left behind what i should.
Tomorrow i've gotta start arranging consultations again and i'm not really looking forward to it.
Everytime i've finished writing an essay i always feel like it's nt good enough and i feel this sense of dread overpowering me. I keep thinking to myself ' i can write better than this' , ' i can phrase my sentences better than this'. But somehow, i'm just not doing it.
I'M STILL SEARCHING FOR THAT BLOODY INSPIRATION I HAD LAST YEAR WHEN I RECIEVED MY CRAPPY TERM RESULTS... THAT INSPIRATION FOR ME TO MAKE A CHANGE AND DO BETTER.
I've already been searching since thursday..
WHERE ARE YOU?
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